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The Day I will say "Goodbye"



Just the thought of leaving someone or something that you loved is very stressful but at the same time you know you are ready to embark on a new journey. You want to leave the comfort of life which had been holding you back for the longest time.

Will I ever say "Goodbye" - Yes, I will but not to the people I love. I will say "Goodbye" to the people who make me realise my worth just being around them. We all  somehow tend to go for the easy life where we try to maintain work and personal life balance. We do this with expertise for many years and suddenly one day it hits you. You realise you don't belong here anymore.

The road I stand on right now has two paths. One is green, beautiful with flowers headed to the world which I have been seeing for the longest time and the second path is hazy, there are bumps on the road, I hear a roar as well but at the same time I find it exciting. There is adventure, there is a thrill and I know the excitement will be like that of a child who discovers a new toy. Do I want to be a child again? Do I need to smile? Can I be happy and satisfied? Does a word like job satisfaction exist? I need to discover, I need to let go, I need to be strong...

Wait wait I saw something...the second path is showing some lights, there is laughter coming from there...hmmm I think I just smelled the flowers. Ohhh I am tempted...

Let me try this one last time - I close my eyes and I let the other senses take over. Let the silence around me decide my path. I hear the birds chirping, I hear someone fell down, wait wait it was followed by a giggle...hehe I think I want to laugh along. I know now, I have decided - I will like this path of mystery. I will fall and rise, I will cry and laugh, I will come out stronger. I know I need to do this. I need to get over a decade that I spent where I am. I have no one or nothing with me but my knowledge and my conscious. I know I will survive...

I am ready to embark on a new journey, ready to leave the comfort zone, ready to move on. Move on and reach what belongs to me. Move on and see the beautiful world around. Move on and smile as I am Happy for ME.

 

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